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Wednesday, February 22, 2017


Last week was an utter whirlwind, and I'm just now breathing again.

Another tech week has come and gone. It's the most bittersweet feeling on the planet. It was an exhausting week. But oh, it was worth it. 

This show was a special one. It had a really big place in my heart. I can't say that I'm glad it's gone. The music plays on repeat in my head, as the memories whirl through.

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Loading in. Coffee. So much foam. So many toppers. The screaming of drills. Running back and forth. Wiping counters. Labeling bins. Running for lunch. Old hardware stores. The calm before the storm. Waiting. Feet pounding on the concrete. Laughter. So many kids. Bright lights. Ladders moving back and forth. Sunset. What will this week bring?

Valentine's Day. Makeup. Wing that liner. Silver silver silver. Hairspray hanging in the air. Finishing early. How did that happen? Didn't last long. Running the scene. Run it run it run it. Behind again. Keep going. Keep working. Forgot lunch. No time. Exhausted. Finally going home. Glitter pouring out of a card. Happy.

Dress rehearsal. Craziness downstairs. Life is a blur. Run it run it run it. Keep going. Keep pushing. Move the flats. Splinters piercing our skin. Matching shirts. Coordinating dance moves. Inside jokes. What even is going on? No one knows. Keep going. 

Chaos. Fevers. People dropping like flies. Stress. Paint dripping. Oh, the irony. Praying praying praying. Run it again. Laughter fixes everything. The ripping of tape. Give up and keep going. Push through, love. It'll be alright. 

Show day show day show day. Adrenaline courses through our veins. We made it. Joy. Jesus. Chick-fil-a. Laughing in booths. Ugly snapchats. Have to find makeup glue. Walmart runs. Crazy laughter. This family. Adventures. Sketchy makeup shops. Blaring soundtracks. Screaming at the top of our lungs. Sonic. Milkshakes. Stretchhhhhhh. Pouring glitter on each other. {We're fairies now.}  Dancing through the dressing room. Uncontainable joy. Another show. Keep going. Keep pushing. People we love. Relief. Waiting in the parking lot, sitting on the curb and laughing into the night. Staring up at the stars. This is the life. 

Last show. Can't cry yet. Sleeping in. Picking up more glitter. We'd used it all. Missing people. One last prelude. Hiding the whale. Blink. It's over. Applause. Cheers. Losing my voice. Warmth. The smell of roses. Surging people. Glitter bombing. Load out. Hurry hurry. Scraping of wood. Running through the night. Crisp air. Ihop again? Tired. How is it over already? Time to go home. But my heart's still at the theater.

I miss these memories already, but oh, am I thankful for this week. ♥

39 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness, Grace! This post describes theatre so well! It sound like you had an beautiful time!

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    1. Aw, thank you so much! It really was an incredible experience. ♥

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  2. I can't even begin to say how much I love this <3

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    1. And I can't even begin to say how much I love you ♥

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  3. This is so beautiful! What production did you do?

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    1. Thank you so much, Hannah! That means a lot. ♥ It was actually an original musical that our director wrote- a really beautiful show.

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  4. Oh wow, Grace Anne, this is so pretty! I don't do theatre, but I have tons of friends who do and this is just awesomeness *shares with theatre friends*

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    1. Oh my goodness, thank you so much, Hanne!! ♥

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  5. IS THIS MUSIC MAN BECAUSE IM SAD NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
    #postshowblues #theworsttttt
    gee. thanks Grace.

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    1. IT'S NOT MUSIC MAN BUT GOSH I'M GOING TO CRY WHEN THAT SHOW IS OVER </3

      Post show depression is the worst. I sincerely apologize for causing a relapse. ;)

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  6. I love this! What production did you do?

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    1. Thank you so much! It was an original musical that our director wrote:)

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  7. Oh my gosh. I love this SO. MUCH. And I also wanna know what production it was!

    Hailey
    haileyhudson.wordpress.com

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    1. Eep, THANK YOU SO MUCH! ♥♥ It was an original show!! Our director wrote and composed it, it was really beautiful :)

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  8. That is so beautiful and ecapsulates the exhilaration of every show ever! But I have to know: What show? What show??? What show???????

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    1. Thank you so much!! This comment meant so much to me, Madeline! It was an original musical, one that our director wrote and composed:) ♥

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  9. YEESSS. I can relate--especially the "people dropping like flies" part. Fevers and colds everywhere... and the acting stuff too. The prelude is emotional.

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    1. Ugh, show sickness is the absolute worst. And isn't the prelude so emotional? It always kind of makes me want to cry, haha.

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  10. I love how you captured the memories. You can just FEEL IT MAN.

    (To the Barricade!)

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  11. This made me miss tech weeks and backstage so much! <3

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  12. I loved this post <33 SO MANY GOOD FEELS.

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  13. You remind me of my sister last year when she was in a play. She legit cried the whole week after the last show. She loved her "theater family".

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    1. Oh my goodness, I can totally relate to that. I've never been quite that emotional, just because I don't cry very easily, but the week after a show is always filled with lots of reminiscing, looking through photos, texting people "I MISS YOU SO MUCH" and sadly singing the songs. XD Theatre families are truly the best.

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  14. SDHGSAJKHFKSJALKDJ THIS POST IS EVERYTHING. <33333 what even. I feel like I'm THERE. your writing.

    you blow my mind yoU INCREDIBLE FAIRY SQUAD CHILD SUPERSTAR YOU

    :''''''''')
    *hugs you and this post forever*
    so many feels

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    1. OH MY GOODNESS I AM FLAILING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW :'''''')

      I love you so much my beautiful fairy squad mother ♥♥♥♥♥♥

      *hugs you for all eternity*

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  15. I loved reading this! I just went through tech week last week as well, and although it is extremely mentally and physically exhausting, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I'm in love with your blog-just discovered it!
    <3 Mira

    www.steppinginsunshine.blogspot.com

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    1. Oh, you were in a tech week?? What show did you do? It's always so exhausting, but just the best experience. ♥

      Thank you so much for your kind words! I appreciate them so much. I'll have to check your blog out! :)

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  16. this is such an amazing post and just SUCH PRETTY WORDS AND I LIKE HOW YOU WROTE THIS. 😍

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    1. Oh my goodness this means so much coming from THE LITERAL WRITING QUEEN WOW I LOVE YOU ♥

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  17. Awww, don't ya love that feeling of perfoming??!! ;D I love how you wrote this.
    -Maxene

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    1. It's just the best feeling! Thank you so much, Maxene!

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  18. By the way, I just started reading your blog (it was recommended by Allie at Spreading My Joy), and I fell in love with it right away! We seem similar in quite a few things, I.E., I am a performing fanatic but I sing/play piano instead of dance (although I want to learn jitterbugging), and I love reading!! I am, however, a bona fide extrovert. Ha! But hey, they say opposites attract, right? ;)
    --Maxene

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    1. Aw, Allie's the sweetest! Wow, we really do have a lot in common- that's so cool! I suppose we're the introverted and extroverted versions of each other ;)

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  19. Literally reading this post made me smile so big.

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    1. And this comment made me smile so big, so we're even. ♥♥♥♥

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  20. this post. THIS POST. JUST WOW. I love the way it's written, short and yet filled with detail. It feels like tiny snapshots of your life, like little peeps into your mind and it was SO COOL!!!!!!

    sorry I haven't been commenting much lately!! It's been a hectic last couple of months. I'll try to do better and comment more often though.
    ~Esther

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